i haven’t written in 2 weeks.
i’ve giving myself a guilt trip for it too…
like “how dare you not have time for this, takara”.
but yknow what?
while our 9 month old
[yes you read that right – NINE MONTH OLD]
is ALMOST crawling…
time is definitely not.
i met up w/ one of business partners for coffee this afternoon & she mentioned that since the end of august, time hasn’t slowed down.
like it’s just all mushed together.
last night, 2 of my great friends i get to share a stage w/ mentioned they feel like time isn’t just moving fast but it’s rushing.
like days are rushing to meet the next.
we are rushing through one calendar week to the next.
i feel like halloween was yesterday & i just bought flights for thanksgiving which is in less than 2 weeks?
we just got back from a wedding in kansas that we’ve been anticipating for 2 years.
it came & went in 72 hours.
our family has already drawn names for christmas presents.
lurayna’s first santa photoshoot is this weekend.
& new years gigs are booked.
it’s just crazy.
but i think the reason we feel rushed instead of just busy…
is bc last year…
everything crawled.
i mean, some days we didn’t even know what day it was bc it didn’t matter.
each day was the same which makes time go by at a snails pace.
& THEN…
we all got thrown into the “catch up” of what needed to happen in order to get back to “normal”.
which i think is what made that “rush” feeling happen.
like the beautiful feeling of “hurry up & wait”.
like… you’re in rush to make a flight that the universe decides to delay.
or you’re at an audition you had to hurry up & print a resume & a headshot for but they’re on #14 & you’re #92.
or you’re FINALLY on time to the doctors appointment that took you 2 months to make but there isn’t even a seat in the waiting room area so you know they’re running behind…
or just traffic… when you actually leave before you’re supposed to & then you sit in construction traffic…
all of these are pretty real, huh?
the rush we’re feeling right now…
i wonder if it’ll go away?
but honestly i’d rather it feel this way sometimes rather than the snail pace.
i love fast moving anything.
if you know me – you know i like to stay busy.
but i also want to celebrate taking our time w/ things…
especially things that matter.
i want lurayna to slow down.
i don’t want her to crawl yet.
but i do.
i don’t want her to stand up yet.
but i do.
i don’t want her to ween off breastfeeding yet.
but i do.
but what i know i DO want is to savor all the moments… regardless of how fast or slow the SEEM to go.
how is this season feeling for you?
what are you taking out of it?
what are you learning from it?
Take Out with TK 